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stand up

i am feeling that im fucking alive again

if not totally,at least things turn out to be much better for me

i can leave the fucking nuisances far behind

i can go on as long as i think it should be over

i felt tired, really really beyond what i thought i could bear

shadows in heart might still be there

but that was the price of growing up,isnt it?

you gotta be hurt before you know what could be expected and what should not be

the only one who can erase the past is yourself which i realized long ago but did not willing to learn to forgive

i live for myself, not anyone else,not a tiny single one of others

i can not live in the hate,in the hurt,in the endless darkness

my life was so fucked up in the past one year

i was trapped in a vicious circle

helplessly, desperately, desparely

ok,listen now

IT'S THE END OF ALL.

the fucking forever inevitable unreversable END!

i gave up the pursuit of perfect

i began to laught at myself of the unique fantasy

i chose to accept the reality

i must pick up the lost part of my dignity and ego

im the one should be proud of myself

im the one should enjoy the various experience

im the one able to brighten the world

Silvia,be strong, cheers up.

18.3.09 14:27
 


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doriana (24.3.09 13:23)
my dear,我知道在你身上一定发生了什么,彻底的,颠覆性的
只是 我没有问,是害怕去触碰,也希望你遗忘,那些会让彼此内心都愈加战栗的声音
但我知道,你会活过来,一定会
因为你是我认识的silvia,一直都是。。。

说到电影,正如你所说的
观影的时光真是当下的生存境遇中,最自我的那部分
它在提醒我,就算我抓不到所有,也至少还有为自己而活可能


Silvia (24.3.09 13:38)
小轩~~~~~~~~~谢谢你,你的话让我想起我们过往的一切交流,那样灵魂知交,那样的心灵互通,我遗失了很久,这一刻,我念起了所有。。。

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